I have lived

How Boyish or Girlish Are You?

Your Dream Engagement Ring Has a Heart Diamond!

You wear your heart on your sleeve, so of course you should also wear it on your ring.A heart diamond is the perfect choice for highlighting your passionate disposition. Only a true romantic can get away with wearing this ring. Luckily, that’s you. And only a true romantic can give you this ring, so make sure you find him…!

What’s Your Dream Engagement Ring?

Your Birthdate: October 27

For you, love is a feeling that lingers for really long time – even after a relationship is totally over. In fact, you still make have strong feelings for the first person you fell in love with. You usually are reluctant to end relationships. And sometimes you’re the last to know that things are ending!Number of True Loves You’ll Have: 5 Number of Times You’ll Have Your Heart Broken: 5 You are most compatible with people born on the 9th, 18th, and 27th of the month.

                                             What Does Your Birth Date Mean For Your Love Life?

You May Be a Bit Borderline…

Your mood swings make a roller coaster look tame! When you’re up, you’re a little bit crazy… And when you’re down, your whole world is crashing Scary thing is, these moods can change by the minute!

What Personality Disorder Are You?

Men See You As Choosy

Men notice you light years before you notice them You take a selective approach to dating, and you can afford to be picky You aren’t looking for a quick flirt – but a memorable encounter It may take men a while to ask you out, but it’s worth the wait

How Do Men See You?

You Are A Lily

You are a nurturer and all around natural therapist. People see you as their rock. And they are able to depend on you. You are a soothing influence. You can make people feel better with a few words. Your caring has more of an impact than even you realize.

What Flower Are You?

You Make a Good First Impression

You probably are making a much better impression than you realize. Social situations can be a bit awkward for you at times, and you tend to over think what you say and do. If you make a social faux pas, you remember it a lot longer than anyone else does. Just relax and do your best. There are little things you can do to improve your social image. Express more of an interest in the people around you, and be a good listener. The secret of fascinating people is that they find everyone else fascinating!

You are Milk Chocolate

A total dreamer, you spend most of your time with your head in the clouds. You often think of the future, and you are always working toward your ideal life. Also nostalgic, you rarely forget a meaningful moment… even those from long ago.

 The hanging bridge at Tarzan’s treehouse…

We have to take a raft to the tree house…which means long queues…

A pirate!

Festival of the lion king

Water parade

The Golden Mickeys musical

Cinderella Carousel

My favourite, Space Mountain! It’s a indoor roller coaster, with very pretty starry ceiling.

Jocelyn and me haha, so fun!

Inside Buzz Lightyear Astro Blaster…

Mickey’s PhilharMagic, a 3D show, I love this too!

This Winnie the Pooh is a violent one, haha.. he kicked opened the gate when he went to its resting area, I guess I’d get pissed off too under that thick costume.  

Night at Disney main street.

At the crystal shop, us holding a crystal fantasy castle.

At night all the trees are light up with the colorful lightbulbs, it was so gorgeous, haha, but my camera couldn’t capture the beauty of the scene.

The night ended with the lovely fireworks. It rained at around 7 o’clock and we thought the fireworks would be cancelled. Many tourists left without waiting for it. We were lucky to be still in Disney when they announced that the show would go on!

Headed home with Mickey express again.

After thoughts…

All in all I am happy about the trip to HK Disney, it was fun, but it would be better if there were more thrilling rides for adults. Haha.. and thanks to Jocelyn we can visit there without having to pay the entrance fee (coz she knows friends who work there, staffs are entitled to bring friends and relatives in up to 10 plus time per year, each time limited to 3 adults) Too bad didn’t have much time to take more pictures, most of the time we were running about from attraction to attraction. I wanted to take photo with the cinderella, Minnie and the Disneyland railroad! Oh well, nvm I will do that next time at Japan Disneyland =p

The train that brought us to Disneyland. Look at the handles, so cute!

At the entrance =)

Behind us stands the sleeping beauty castle.

Me, my cousin’s cousin lol, and cousin Jocelyn

My sports car at Autopia =P 

One of my favourite picture with Buzz Lightyear!

This rubbish bin can move and talk, that’s why so many people were crowding around it.

At the royalty banquet area.

To be continued…

Let’s look at some cute pictures of little me!

According to Mommy, these pictures were taken by a bunch of uni students. They intended to use the pictures for some photography competition, and asked my mommy if they can use us as models. I wonder if they actually won, but judging at the super cute me, highly probable that they have won. LOL

Nothing special about this photo, just another cute picture of me LOL

Portuguese egg tart, Yummy!

Me and Nikki at my cousin’s place.

This little doggie will cry when u leave!

Doing some Kong-fu at my uncle’s office lol

I can kick some ass-es!

Auntie Shirley brought us to this traditional Portuguese restaurant for dinner. Shown above is the portuguese sausage. It’s really salty if you eat it by its own. It is usually ate as a snack with wine.

This was my favourite dish of the day! This grilled lamb chop is so tender, best lamb chop I ever have. Even my picky chef mom gave it the thumbs up!

Next on the list is Portuguese styled chicken fried rice. The serving is so ridiculously big. Enough to satisfied 7 hungry people with excess! This is good too!

馬格休 in cream sauce! I dunno how to translate 馬格休 back into Portuguese, it is actually salted preserved fish. In every Portuguese restaurant there will be some dishes made with 馬格休, and this one is in cream sauce with potatoes. A high calories but delicious dish =p.

We ordered 2 bowl of potato and leek soup and another seafood soup. The bill totalled around 100 Singapore dollars, quite worth it for a dinner for 6 I’d say.

Next on the itinerary was the visit to casino! That’s what Macau is famous for anyway. This was my first time visit there, as I finally passed the age limit of 21, Haha… This Grand Lisboa is brand new. It’s so gold and shiny, almost to the extent that hurts my eyes. The interior is lavishly decorated. I totally fall in love with the toilet lol, impeccably clean and high tech.

It has millions of surveillance cameras in there, too bad I couldn’t take pictures in there, haha.. The security guard put a “no cameras allowed” sticker on my bag. I do have some beginner’s luck in there playing the slot machine, it was so exciting to see the coins falling off the machine. I won almost double my bet at Lisboa, but only to lose more than that at Sands casino (We went to two at that night). =__=

So, the conclusion is: I am better off not gambling.

P.S. A loanshark actually approached my mom, asked her if she needs “help”… lol

Didn’t have internet for the past weeks, so couldn’t blog about farewell meetups with my dear friends. Met up with my JC girlfriends a few times before I leave, and it ain’t enough! I am gonna miss them, they made my JC life so wonderful, love ya gals (my twins Manyi, Maryanne and Jaws)!

And there are my uni cheerleading buddies! Without them my uni life would be so miserable. And Emiko chan! Please send us the crazy photos we took that day k! Can’t wait to see them! Ayaka chan is so sweet. She called me several times on my departure day, really miss ya gal! But dun worry, we gonna go to Japan together one day anyway hehe!

Also, my sec school friends totally surprised me! I have not been contacting them since secondary school graduation, but together they wrote me a farewell card, that’s really a sweet surprise. Thanks Jumanji, Carol and Jimmy for preparing the cards! (They were the main organizers as I was told haha) To Jumanji: Thanks for your gift, you would always be my special friend!

There are myriads of sweeties I haven’t mentioned by name, but I really love each and everyone of ya! PLEASE keep in contact with me hunk-s and babes!

Will upload related photos shortly!

Kiss

Angela

Mom kept bugging me to start finding job, not that I don’t want to, but still not used to my good old home here. Haha… My house is so super tiny, half the size of my HDB back in Singapore. It’s even smaller now with all the things we brought back from Singapore, so congested! The number one thing I couldn’t get used to is I don’t have a desk nor a dressing table of my own (and no full length mirror!), plus now there is only one toilet in my apartment, kinda sad.

Girls in HK are so tiny, which makes me feels like a giant. My cousin has been on her dieting regime for half a year and have already shed 20 pounds. Guess it is time for me to start mine. Oh, and HK gals have great skin too, really flawless skin, I think it’s becuase they protect themselves from UV rays the best they could.

Anyway, going to Macau tomorrow to run some errands and visit my bro. I swear after the Macau trip I will be doing my job search HAHA.

Angela, blogging at her cousin’s place =p

Yesterday I was awake by the sound of packing. Men from the moving company came to pack my piano. The rowdy men were assuring my mommy that the piano will be carefully packed (in bubble sheet and hard cardboard =__=). I remember clearly in the past when people move the piano to my house, only 2 men were needed. They used a strap and can easily move the piano to my house without a noise.

And yesterday came 4 men. I live in a floor that is without a lift. either u have to climb up one floor to access the lift, or go down 3 floors. The men choose to move the piano down 3 floor! GOSH… cause they said they don’t have enough strength to move it up.

I can tell ya how unprepared and unprofessional these men are. To earn their $500 pay, they are putting my $8800 piano at stake!

THEY ROLLED MY PIANO DOWN THE STAIRS WITHOUT ANY FORM OF SUPPORT BENEATH MY PIANO. I HATE U!

I hope my piano will reach HK in ONE piece…I will know on the 21st when they move it to my house in HK. . . sobs

We stunned the crowds with stunts! lol We were so obessed that we didn’t notice the background is so ugly!  *Thanks Ayaka, emiko, taro and Sf for being my bases! haha.. special credits to taro! His face is hidden behind my gown! lol*

I look so fat in the mortarboard =p

=(

I wonder if this is the best decision. It’s was my dream company of my most preferred industry! But due to personal family reasons, I can’t stay in Singapore, I’m relocating and therefore I have to turn down the offer. >,<

I wonder if I would be as lucky to have the chance to get into the advertising industry in a big name company in HK. I need to pray hard again …

I am supposed to start work on the coming Monday… now I am still rotting at home preparing for the relocation…sigh

It was such a daunting task to reject the offer. I have to sms the VP about my decision (unconventional way I know lol… but given his busy schedule, it’s the best channel to reach him, he told me in the interview “I am just an sms away”), then call my supposedly future supervisor personally to apologise. She was surprisingly friendly! I guess she was amused by my decision, as she was laughing when I was on the phone with her, and she jokes “Just don’t let me caught you in another agency, I will kill ya!” Haha, only wish there were another agency that is willing to hire me lol!

After awhile I receive an sms from the VP, “Things happens in life, best of luck”. I really appreciate their kindness and understanding. And I am terribly sorry about the troubles I have caused.

I kind of hinted that I wish to work for their company in another region (i.e. HK), but I just feel too much of a troublemaker to ask for a referral, so wish me luck in HK again.

And yesterday the organizer of the programme called me up, asking me why I turned down the popular company which most participants want to get in… So I just told her the reasons once again… and she reminded me again of the opportunity I have given up.

Just hope that the future is even brighter. No ways to regret, just looking ahead!

Kiss,

Angela

Anxiety, apprehension, desire…

Unexpectedly I am at the final final round of the advertising agencies recruiting process!

I really hope I make it through. Though it’s expected that the I will still be far far away from the glamour and glitz of the industry, and mostly doing grunt entry level work, I am still excited! At least its a start, and a very good start with a great company!

Deep down I know God gave me the chance, cos I didn’t do as well as I want myself to be in the previous round, in fact quite disappointing I feel. So being called up for a final interview really came as a super pleasant surprise. (though I was so out of bed when I picked up the call! Ouch! Hope I did not blew my chances away >,<)

I must seize this opportunity and make my way in! Praying hard!

P.S. The interview collide with my friends’ visit, kind of troublesome, but anyway, it’s gonna be an eventful week ahead! Hee! I am not reviewing which company I am interviewing until I get my offer! HaHaHa!

Kiss,

Angela

He gave me a 7 page (or 8?) long sms on the next day after our “wonderful” date. In summary, he apologized for things he did yesterday, explained why he acted the way he did, told me how much he treasured our past relationship, and asked if we have any chances to reconcil and get back together again.

I thought it was unwise to talk about getting back together at this stage. After all those dramas and inability to be calm and mature to handle our emotions, how can we pretend nothing has happened?

I am no longer angry at him, but I refuse to be a close friend to him anymore, at least for now. I want him to move on. He once said he can’t treat me as a friend, and I understand that it’s very difficult to go through an abrupt transition from couples to friends. So I decided to be harsh abit for now, and decide in future if we can be friends again. I really hope we can.

Sometimes when I look back at our relationship, there are many times I feel hurt and frustrated, but I never tell him as I thought he can’t handle girls’ throwing temper at him. I just bottled all up and tell myself that I should be more understanding. And he would be so irritated that I couldn’t speak to him. It’s a vicious circle. Now I regreted not shouting at him or punching him or kicking him. Weird girl.

Hope he can be happier.

Kiss,

Angela

That’s it. Thats the last straw!

Unbelievable. I am just relieve that the decision to end the relationship with him has once again proven right. He was as sensitive as he has always been. Come on! I am a girl and I never throw tempers at him, but he as a 24 year old young man has been constantly hurting me with his sarcastic remarks. My toleration for him does not mean he is entitled to exaggerate his emotions and ignore mine.

He never allows me to put up a msn nick that has the slightest suggestion or connotation that he is not treating his girlfriend well; but often put up fury nick that tells the whole world I was ill treating him. Why I bring this up is because I reached home and found out that he put yet another damn msn nick. I am sick of him.

Let me tell you the most ridiculous “date” ever in my life.

Today, we met up to sort of celebrate his birthday. Once we meet, he ask me for the drama “heart of greed”. I couldn’t burn for him and my mom hasn’t finished the drama yet, so I told him I did not bring it. Immediately a snide smirk appearred on his face. Since then, he has put up a long black face which makes me really uncomfortable. So we mooned around the Far East mall like zombies…I couldn’t stand the dead silence anymore, so I tried to generate some topics and make the atmosphere lighter. It was a bit better, but only up till the point we leave the mall and head to Takashimaya. From that short distance between one mall to the other, we somehow touched on the topic of whether I should stay in Singapore to work. Oh dear, and it should be an untouchable topic! He started acting funny, he kept wanting me to heed his advice, and when I say I couldn’t decide, he became agitated, almost to the point of reprimanding me.

I guessed we both weren’t enjoying the meet up, so we went to MacDonald to have a rest. He went to buy some food so we can legitimately stay in the crowded outlet. When he came back with the tray, he almost threw it on to the table with a slight indication of anger (or maybe I read too much into his actions?). So we chatted uncomfortably. All of a sudden, he told me he wants to leave Singapore to a faraway land where nobody knows him. His reason was because nobody ever care about his happiness or unhappiness, so it’s better for him to start afresh in a completely new environment. At that point of time, I thought he was just saying it out of frustration. I understood the meaning behind his statement, he meant: I have never cared about him. While I was  trying to think of something to pacify his emotions, he said he wasn’t feeling well, and he wished to leave. He then grabbed his bag, and left.

I was absolutely hurt by his insensitiveness and ungentlemenliness. After 5 minutes sitting there stupidly with solitude, I stood up embarrassedly and fled. And about that same time, I received an sms from him. I naively thought it was an apology sms. I was wrong! The sms was an expression of hate. He said he hates me as I am always indifferent to his feelings. How much more ridiculous can it be?

I phoned my friends to talk about my frustration, and also on the way back I met dear jaws (she was with this super cute guy!) and we talked briefly about my eventful day. All of my friends were surprised how immature and sensitive a guy can be. (I wonder sometimes if it is because I colored him as such a person as I narrate my story to them, as I really have to do him some justice by saying he was really a good bf while we were together, thought sometimes I really hate him for being so insensitve to my feelings.)

Anyway, I really thanks all my friends who have gave me some comfort.

Kiss,

Angela

They say I am gullible and dumb. I was just helping out of compassion. Even if I was being cheated, I want to believe that I was right.

Do not ridicule or scold me anymore. I will be “SMARTER” and pretend I do not see anything if it happens again. I promise.  

I slept at 4 am this morning.

And woke up by my mom in 7 am, received a heavy reprimand for a messy wardrobe and untopped ezlink cards… Which stretched far enough to the topic of me being jobless. That’s explain why I am up and blogging…

ARGH!

Ha ha… I forgot to blog about something!

I WENT JOGGING FOR  2 DAYS CONSECUTIVELY!

Hee^^ don’t I deserve some applause for encouragement?

Dunno if I can do it for a month =p It’s only 2 days n my right ankle is crying >,<

I just love the thought that I did some exercise beside rotting! ( I don’t want to go back HK and hear them say that I look bigger than last time, it would be such a nightmare…)

頑張ってください、ﾏﾝｲ一ちゃん！

Kiss again,

Angela!

Winnie and her friend Jo Jo is coming to Singapore for holiday on 25th! So excited, I asked Winnie why she wanna come to Singapore she said coz I am here, so just nice to pay me a visit. *Hugz*

Wonder where should I bring them around, haha… Singapore is so small! Well, the usual tourist spots I guess. Nonetheless, I can’t wait to meet them!

ARGH! I am still contemplating if I should stay or leave… The way I look at it, its more like I am leaving then staying, as I am not actively looking for jobs now, and mom already sold the house. I feel so unsettled.

Lately I am so crazy about Lamfung… He is hot, charming, tall, a born singer, rich, cute … So unbelievable! Oh FYI, I am also crazy about Takeshi Kaneshiro and Daniel Wu. Yeah, I know I am greedy, but I couldn’t help it! =p They are all incredibly handsome and talented artiste. I am mesmerized by their sheer appearances on the screen… HA Ha! I talked like a teenage stars chaser lol.

Kiss good night!

Angela

I absolutely love this movie. My friend managed to find a dvd copy for me (Thanks Jumanji!), and today I re-watch it for the dunno-how-many times. It has the strange ability to make me laugh hard and become teary every time I watch it, even though I know exactly how the plot is going to evolve.

“Nobody ever grows up quite like they imagined.”

I soooo agree. I can hardly remember what I wanted to be when I was a kid. A Beauty queen with the title of Miss Hong Kong? An critically acclaimed Actress who won numerous awards ? A famous female Director who produce blockbuster movies and excel in box office?  A Gymnast who won a gold medal Olympic? HA-HA! I guess while I was a kid, I aspired to be (oh well, or imagined) all these when I grow up. And I am already UP, but have achieved none! Its good to remember what you wanted to do when you were young. It helps to keep “the kid” in you, it helps to preserve your dream. What would we become when we have no aims and dreams? Ans: corks bobbing about on the sea of fate.

Oh! Back to the movie, haha. I want to talk a bit on “the kid”, Spencer Breslin. W-O-W! He is a born actor! Its no wonder he won the Young Artist Award. His performance is very natural, couldn’t really tell he is acting. I wish I have such talent haha.

I wonder why this film didn’t do very well in the box office. I am not a professional movie critic and I don’t know how to analyse the movie from any aspect. I just thought it is a good movie cuz it entertained me and touched my heart, simple.

Hope my friends would have a chance to watch it!

P.S. I pray hard that I can wake up earlier tomorrow with enough determination to go for a jog. TIME TO SHAPE UP! These graduated cum unemployed transitory period is turning me to a tub of lard…Let me bring myself a tiny step forward to become a beauty queen..wahaha… late at night, time to dream!

Kiss, Angela

I heard this song over the radio for the first time and I instantly fell in love with it!

I have lived — by Mark Ellman

When I take a one-way ticket to the road of no return,
on a journey every man must make some day.
When it’s time to meet the Father
and explains my sins away,
I will tell him, yes I’ll tell him I have lived.I have lived each single moment as a man of flesh and blood,
with my soul and all my senses open wide.
I have lived and tasted everything that called out to be tried
and afraid of either heaven or of hell,
never caring if I had a soul to sell.

Wish I can live like the lyric has described.